To the bravest woman I know:
This is a unique day in our paths, for I am certain that we are both wondering similar things today about the same special little girl that neither of us are able to be with. Are you wondering what our sweet two year old girl looks like? Are you wondering if she will get a party today or open any presents?
Are you sharing my questions about her care and if she knows that she is an orphan? Do you have any suspicions about what her future holds?
Are you remembering the moment you realized that she could not be yours forever? I wonder about you all the time. I wonder if you knew her fate before you gave birth, or whether upon holding her in your arms your tears fell because her gender or medical needs forced you to give her up.
Are you picturing the day you wrapped her tiny body in a blanket, placed her in a paper box, tucked a note with her information beside her, and kissed her goodbye? I'm wondering if you watched from afar as she was found on the doorstep you left her on. Did you ever walk by the orphanage hoping to catch a glimpse of her?
I'm certain that you are wondering about me as well. Was your written request for someone to adopt her fulfilled? Where is she in the world? Does she have siblings? Medical care? Parents that kiss and cuddle her? A warm bed? A limitless future?
Whatever the reasons were for leaving her that day, I wish you could know that I think you are brave and I am grateful that you gave her life. Whatever the reasons were that prevented you from being her forever mommy, I wish you could know that you will never be forgotten.
Because, although we can't celebrate with her either today, we will be with her soon and plan to celebrate many, many birthdays with her. We will tell her what we know and as she grows, give her the freedom and opportunities to learn all she can about her beginnings.
We will fulfill your request to adopt her and heal her and open the lid to her future so that she can make whatever she wants of it. We pray that she grows up to make a difference in the lives of others and make the world better, giving glory to the one who knitted her together in your womb.
My heart is tied to yours today as we wish Joya a happy birthday from much too far away.