Hi. Let me introduce myself.
I'm Exhausted Mommy.
I've just finished my first week of being the "learning coach" for my second grader and kindergartener who are in a new virtual charter school. There are no words for how hard it was to get my children back into the school mode this week.
My husband is gone deer hunting for the third weekend in a row and I'm tired of being "ON" from morning until night, seven days a week.
I don't care if we ever eat again and I have given up sweeping up the kitchen floor after a day's worth of meals are over - because they will just be there again tomorrow.
I can't bring myself to wipe the food smears off the breakfast bar where my boys eat many of their meals, because again, they'll show up tomorrow.
I'm Exhausted Mommy because I stay up way too late at night when I'm alone, doing nothing productive, because I simply crave some moments that are about me (while I'm awake).
I'm also Short Tempered Exhausted Mommy because I've been hobbling around for a month with lower back pain that gets a little better and a little worse, depending on the day. Simple Mommy duties such as laying the baby down in his crib hurt me.
And the pain is exhausting me.
The to-do list hanging over my head is exhausting me. Like the invisible dog fence that needs to be repaired and the leaking sprinkler valve that we need to figure out and our television that is at the repair shop will need to be picked up some time this week... I haven't balanced our family budget in two months, and I don't know where that leaves us financially.
I'm tired just thinking about it.
We have five more weeks of soccer (five games a week). The kids LOVE it. But it is a lot of effort for me to get us all there.
I have thank you notes to write and I have a blanket crocheted for my new niece - in my head, because every time I get about a third of the way done with it, I hate it and pull it all out.
It's 8:32 p.m. and the kids are all in bed. My kitchen is as clean as it is going to get tonight.
Maybe I should knock out that budget...
Nope, I'm putting on my jammies and climbing in bed.
"His mercies are new every morning."